maybe monday is not so bad

after today i feel a little bit tired and sleepy, but i can't go to sleep because i waiting for my telephone wich i forget in car, but while im waiting my phone back, i will tell you how was my day.
after my frenetic saturday's night i didn't felt rested. all i want in this morning is stay in my bed, because i felt a little bit ill. but after an easy day in school, i went to the Riga city with my best friend to buy me a watch, so I didn't took so much money, then this pleasure we postponed for another time, but we had a wonderful day. we went to the pizzeria, ordered some pizza and orange grog, warm and delicious. then we starder our shopping: my friend bought very beautiful, white jacket and i bought three lovely bracelets from H&M and Fit Me foundation by Maybelline, with wich i'm realy satisfied, it realy fits me. after shopping we went to another pizzeria to drink some cocktail, in this time i ordered "Sex on the beach", not so much alcohol and realy good.
so there i am: waiting for my phone and sleep.
hope that your day was as good as mine.

first time

Always something comes for first time and so it was in saturday. 

Yesterday i had a hangover, maybe it's not a hangover, because i felt a little bit drunk. :D

saturday all day i spent with my best friend. i made for us a delicious lunch, then we took some beer, and my best friend made a legs masage for me. i didn't lough like this for a long time ago, like i did it saturday. 

but in the evening we went to the Agates and Sintijas place where we drank some glasses of champagne, danced and had a good evening together. then we went to my ex boyfriend's place, that wasn't a good idea, but no matter, we all had a nice evening, except some incidents. all night we spent in club/bar/elitist institution, but in the end we went to the gambling hall, FOR THE FIRST TIME, maybe it was just begginer's luck, but my best friend oozed 2 euro :D

maybe first time is not so bad.

With my girl's: Elza, Agate, Sintija and me 

it's time to change

good evening to everyone!
this week has begun very difficult for me. holidays is over, school is started again, and divorce, because of my fault. but i trying to console myself, if we are meant to be together, we will find our way back. it's so stupid, but i have no choice as only console myself.
but there is a one good thing about this, I finally have a commitment to change myself. so tomorrow morning i will start with some workout and healthy breakfast before school.

time is running:

1 month

1 commitment

1 purpose

hope that your week will be good. 

hello here...

hello here, in 2014 already.
hope that you all had wonderful year. mine year was very interesting. here was happiness, sadness, disagreements, gossip and much more, it was my 2013.
In new year's eve i heared so many resolutions, like: no more smoking after midnight, healthier lifestyle, more sporting, in my opinion, it all is bullshit, because if you decide that you'll comply you resolutions, you'll do it, but you not begin it at midnight, so yea, this midnight thing is bullshit, because "my new life" i started today: no more unhealthy food so often, stay hydrated, workout, love myself more, be nice to everyone, take care, stop to anger about minutiae, put higher targets for myself... so this is a most of my new years resolutions.
and now a little bit about my new years eve. i spent it at my boyfriend place, there came some of my friends, and some of Rihards friends, so a New years eve we spent with our friends. Everything was great, boys created a men's choir and sang "oh happy day", there was much of funny moments. evening was great until i started grieve myself, about nothing special, but alcohol does what he does.
so, i hope you all will have this year better than last, i wish you luck,  a lot of love and i hope that your wishes come true. with a delay: happy new year!
and now i'm going to write my New years resolutions list.

Christmas time

Finally i'm back at home and Christmas is spent, maybe not that good as possible, but comparatively good.
Christmas eve i spent with my mom, grandmother and mom's new boyfriend. everything was good: a lot of food, presents, nice atmosphere, until i known that my boyfriend Christmas eve are spending alone. so i went to my boyfriends place and brought him some piece of cake and champagne bottle.
In first Christmas day with my boyfriend we had to go visit his family friends in Vecmilgrāvis, but we chose to stay home, and spent in bet all day long, definitely best day, because most of all i like to sleep and eat, haha :D
Last Christmas day i spent with my lovely girls at Agates and Sintijas place, unfortunately not in the usual composition. girls took care of a delicious dinner, in the end food was too much, because all night i had stomach ache. nevertheless, the evening was very nice, we served the gifts. Agate presented a very nice gift- light lanterns, we wrote to them a renewed commitment and later let a light lanterns in the air, it was wonderful.
Yesterday was my 18 birthday. I will be celebrating it with my fiends next friday, but yesterday i spent it with my boyfriend, othing special, films, food, lying in the bed. but in the evening some of my girls made ​​a surprise for me- Sintija and Agate came to my boyfriends place with champagne, chocolate and of course, with pink flower, which already is a tradition. it was very nice and unexpected.
Christmas is spent, and today i'm waiting my godparents and my little cousins for coming to visit me.
Hope you all spent good Christmas time.

Wrapping gifts with my little cousin.

Letting light lanterns in the air.

Traditional birthday present(pink flower) from my girls.

it's rainy day.

its amazing how weather can affect our mood. sometimes, when its sunny, i need anything else, only sun, to feel happy, but when it's rainy i really feel like shit, like today.
its 17 of december, but here not snow, here is only dark skies and rain. i can't tell how much i want a snow. is it Christmas without snow? i think that no. i miss this celebration mood. when its snowy i feel lighter, gentler, brighter like this snow outside.
but today i realy feel in not my mood. this is last serious day in school, because tomorrow all semester grades shall be evicted. i have to be happy, but i feel angry, sad and of all confused, because yesterday i had disagreement with my best friend and today quarreled with my boyfriend.
i hope that tomorrow everything will be okay, but now its time for "Sex and the city", tea and mandarins.

photo from last december. 

first again

hello! :)
i already had many blogs in tumblr and also here, but all attempts was unsuccessful, because after a few posts, i deleted my profiles, but now again i want record all my thoughts, notes and ideas to to read them latter again and again. when i tell someone my problems or tell all my adventures, i feel airy and released. so i think that this blog will serve me for long.
and now a little bit about me again. i'm from Latvia, almost 18 years old girl (after 10 days i'll celebrate my 18 birthday).
and sorry if my english is not so goog, but i'll try.